I....

I saw angels fall, and tried to fall too.

But all I got was at broken heart and pain in my chest.

I wanted to fly, but all that happened, was that my soul broke.

I'm here, on the floor waiting for someone to pick me up.

Waiting for someone too hold me in there arms.

I'm still waiting for that perfect face to reappear,

But it never did, no I never saw it again.

And to this day I wonder was it ever real, was it the truth I saw.

I loved someone once, but I can't see the face of the one I loved anymore.

The face left my memories, without a warning.

And I cried for it's loss.

Every night I hoped that it would return to me.

Just like how I hope my loved one would return from the war.

But the war tore him from my arms.

I tried to hold on, but he was too strong.

And I fell to the ground.

My heart broke.

My soul shattered.

And I was on the wooden floor alone, again.

Waiting for the one I miss to pick me up and fly me to heaven.

To heaven where I will be safe again.

To heaven where I will be loved again.

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson

vad det betydde?

Så länge visste jag inte vad ordet betydde

Jag frågade mig själv varje gång jag stötte på det.

Men fann aldrig ett svar.

Än i dag undrar jag om jag fått det helt rätt.

För ordet, ja ordet kärlek, vad innefattar det?

Är det så uppenbart som det låter?

Betyder det att man har funnit sin själsfrände?

Men vad händer om allt ihop slår fel.

Om den man älskar, inte tål att se på en?

Om man i sin älskades ögon är ett monster?

(om en person, vars historia jag skriver just nu.)

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson

Jag önskar du skulle skrika.
Jag önskar du skulle slå i bordet.
Jag önskar du skulle bli arg.
Jag önskar att du inte bara skulle sitta där med din lugna attityd.
Jag önskar att jag inte alltid vore så enam.
Jag önskar att jag inte vore ensam när jag behöver någon som mest.
Jag önskar....

wait

I'll wait here for you.

So you know you can keep me safe.

See how I is your beloved.

Keep loving me and I will cath you when you fall and keep you safe.

I will see so you can be here with me and not there.

You keep me safe.

Safe from any harm I can get into.

This is me, the only you me you will see.

So don't try to change me to bee like you.

I try hard to be perfect but I never succed with what I do.

Willl you remember me when I'm not there.

Will you remember me for who I was or will be today or tomorrow?

Love it not me it's you.

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson

alien

Between are kinds.
Are familys.
Are friends.
Are people.
They try to find a monster in us.
But we are not monsters.
Just diffrent from humans.
Diffrent from you and your kind.
But not a monster or a murderer that you are trying to find in me.
I'm a living creature.
Just like you are.
A creature that just want to live a life with no hate in are environment.
Like you.
The first meeting is always the most importent.
No mistake is allowed.
So no hate will begin.

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson

werewolf

Look at me.

This is me.

I'm not human.

I'm not a monster.

I'm just not human.

I'm not alone.

We are more then a hundred.

Maybe a thousand or a bit more.

No one knows for sure.

We just keep up with what we got.

Because we have to hide from you humans.

copyright:Olivia Gustafsson

Viskar

Himlens bevingade härskare skriar i skyn.
Ser de mig?
Där jag ligger och ser på dem, tittar upp i himlen.
Samtidigt svävar orden ur mitt huvud ut för mina läppar.
Viskar meningslösa ord för mig själv.
Viskar betydande ord för mig själv.
Viskar: sträcker du ut din hand om jag ber dig?
Skulle du?
Antagligen inte.
Men kanske du skulle det!
För du vet att utan mig kan du inte längre andas.
Jag är styrkan i dina lungor och håller dig vid liv.
Du ät mitt hjärtats styrka och håller det slående.
Jag är dina lungor, du är mitt hjärta.
Din röst är som mitt hjärtats trummande, stadig och evigt slående.
Mina andetag som styrkan i dina lungor.
Utan varandra är vi ingenting alls.

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson

the two of you...

the two of you...
Make me laugh when I want to scream.
Make me smile when I want to cry.
Hold me until I'm steady again.
Tell me I'm fine the way I am.
Say I'm worth living.
yes, that is what the two of you do...

Remember...

Remember us
For what we were
Not for who you think we were
Remember us for our bad sides
That made you scream at us
When I destroyed everything you have done for us, for me
Remember us for our good sides
Who made you laugh and smile
For we live forever as long as someone remembers us
For what we were
For that who filled our hearts
While we was still breathing on this earth
As long as someone remembers us, we will never dissapear
Not entirely, never
We live on through those who come after us
They who hold us in there memories
Lives on through those who remember us for what we believed in
For what we hoped for
For our sorrows
For our betrayals
For our faithfulness
For our happiness
We remain immortal only if we remain honest to the death
Remains loved by our loved ones
Remain faithful to our word
Remembered for the truth of our words
For our destinies were linked together by an invisible thread
But despite that it was torn of
Unexpectedly
Without a warning
We only turned to memories
By cruelty
But we remain in the memories
Where we live on
Forever

(inspirerad av filmen Remember me, som var underbar)

Världen

Om världen som vi vet den, inte skulle vara hela världen
Vad skulle du göra då?
Om världen bestod av mer än människor.
Om världen vi lever i skulle förändras så totalt.
Att vi inte känner igen den längre.
Skulle den fortfarande vara vårt hem?
Eller skulle vi se på den med avsky?

copyright: Olivia Gustafsson